Our last 6.30-9.30 session was this morning.

I look back on the last week and realise just how profound this experience has been for me.

My previous life was an emotional one.

My tears were often. And sad.

Let’s be honest, essentially I used to be a bit of a basket case. 

For the last twenty years it has been a different world for me, with three beautiful happy, healthy, amazingly resilient sons. Who are kind human beings. Who have bought their beautiful wives into my life. 

And MoD, who has changed my life for the better in every way.

This week, at the first session, the root chakra, we talked about where we had come from. 

Our roots.

A thought entered my head, completely out of the blue and unexpected.

I needed to forgive my father.

My father, whom I have rarely thought about for the last 30 plus years. 

Yet when I did, my memories were damming and ugly. 

Of violence towards my mother and sister. 

When they weren’t there to protect me, violence towards me.

This man, who had so many demons, such a tragic early life, who looked to alcohol to mask the pain. 

This man, who I realised was loved by us all. When he was sober.

As demonstrated by our pain and tears when we had to say goodbye to him, those many times my mother would ‘leave’ him.

Only to go back to him.

Because there were so many reasons for a woman to stay in that sort of marriage 50+ years ago.

Fundamentally I know she loved him.

And fundamentally I know there are happy memories of him if I allow myself to remember them.

This week, I realised I needed to forgive him, and to forgive myself. 

For not giving him the respect of those happy memories and the kindness I should have. 

This world is not black and white.

Forgiveness is the key to happiness.

I need to remember and act on that. 

This week has been profound and healing.

When I thought it would be tough physically. 

Something I never expected. 

Sometimes my stories are light.

Sometimes even funny. 

And sometimes they are not. 

But need to be told.

Namaste. 

A traditional greeting from India and Nepal. 

The word comes from Sanskrit and is commonly translated as “I bow to you” or “I honor the divine in you’. 

It also carries a deeper meaning of recognizing and honoring the worth and dignity of another person.

Namaste.